I wish I could be excited about the weekend, but I never really am, unless my plans do not involve food at all. I am trying to make sure my mindset is strong before I have to attend these parties or there will be no hope.

The past 2 days I’ve been around 169.6. At least it’s not 170, but it’s still disappointing when I was at 168 a week ago, and had hoped to be around 166-167 this week. Well, I can pretty much whine every day that I’m not where I want to be and that doesn’t help anything.

I went to the gym yesterday for the second time so far.

Ok, I faced the scale. 2 nights of bad dinners/desserts plus a little more cake last night = 2 lbs. Which means 170 AGAIN. Ugh. I am so mad. I did not eat 7,000 extra calories in 2 days. And I haven’t even slacked on working out - I am still sticking to 6 days a week for at least 45 minutes, and most days an hour or more. Yesterday I jogged/fast walked for 52 minutes and then did full body weights after dinner.

Well, I am taking almost all the rest of the cake over to my mom today so they can help eat it.

I am still here. I guess that’s the important thing. No matter how many times I get frustrated and want to give up, I’m still trying. In fact, I just noticed I’ve already posted more in here this year than I did in 2007-2009 put together. It really has helped me to get my feelings out there, and get inspired by reading so many other blogs by dieters or those who succeed at living healthy lifestyles.

Last night wasn’t the best night. Well, it wasn’t horrible, but it did involve too much junk after dinner. I felt pretty defeated.

I have a million posts to catch up on reading since I didn’t get online much this weekend. Just wanted to post for a minute, because I’m sort of feeling overwhelmed. I definitely ate too much this weekend. I don’t feel too bad about it. What worries me is that there is still a ton of food and wedding cake and ice cream in my kitchen.

I did work out on Saturday and kept my eating down until dinner on both days. But the dinners were pretty crazy! I did not weigh today.

I did it. I got my butt into the tiny apartment gym yesterday. There was one lady in there with her 2 little kids climbing all over the machines, but they pretty much left as soon as I came in. Maybe she was afraid I would notice the rule sign in there that says you’re supposed to be at least 16 to use the gym and complain about it? Or she was just being nice because there are only 3 cardio machines in there.

Well, I was happy to have the place to myself, and started off with 20 minutes on the bike varying in the 4-8 resistance range.

It’s probably a bit early to say that, but I did see 168 even today, which means I’ve lost 15 lbs since I started on January 4th. That’s almost half what I had gained from my wedding to New Year’s, and my first anniversary is Sunday, so I am glad to be sitting at +18 instead of +33 (and we all know I wouldn’t have stopped at +33 either). And I will hopefully get rid of the rest in a few months.

I was super proud of myself yesterday.

In exactly 4 weeks, I’ll be in Jamaica! That is way exciting, but also makes me sad that I only have 4 weeks left to work on my body shape. Eek! That is pretty much zero time, considering how slow I have been at losing. And it’s also scary because there is stuff going on every weekend until we leave that will make it hard to lose weight. My upcoming plans include a fancy anniversary dinner, wedding cake, a going away party, a game night, a baby shower, sweet tomatoes buffet dinner (hello blueberry muffin overdose), renaissance festival, and Easter.

I got in about 35 minutes of weights work after my first post today. I think part of the reason I want to do P90X is to have a program to follow and I know I’m not training the wrong muscles at a time or whatever. I like doing a little of everything and just doing weights every other day instead of one body part every day because I can do it faster and get more done overall, and then I know I’m not accidentally working the same muscle 2 days in a row.

Thank goodness the cold weather seems to be over! Of course, since it’s so warm today, that means rain is going to be visiting for the next few days, probably ruining my chance of walking with mom tomorrow. But I am SO glad to see no more lows of 40s appearing in the 10-day forecast. Hopefully we’re done with that for the season. I would like my plants to grow back now, please!

Alrighty. Yesterday ended out ok, no nuts again, but I did have 110 calories of chocolate caramels AND some sf pudding, which is more than I should have done.